live like that

Can someone please explain to me how you can have this great desire to go somewhere you’ve never been? I’m not talking about the kind of feeling you get when you really want to see what NYC is like, or wanting to experience the hustle and bustle of L.A.. I’m talking about the deep desire of your heart to experience a place completely foreign to you. I’ve been dreaming of going to Africa since my early teenage years. I can’t describe the feeling, I can’t justify it, and I couldn’t even tell you what triggered it years ago.

As the years have gone by, my desire to experience this has not dwindled. In fact, it has only been strengthened. It’s getting harder and harder to push this feeling away to deal with another day. After my trip to Cambodia last summer, I was bit by the travel bug…hard. If any one experience could change my life, that was it. Not only did it let me experience so many new things, but it also confirmed what I was pretty sure of up to that point: I just want to spend my life loving people. That may be in the form of travelling somewhere and helping with a project, or could be as simple as spending time with people somewhere across the world and just doing life with them.

I’m getting more impatient and more excited/eager by the moment for this to be lived out. I want to stop talking about it and do it. If I could get on a plane tomorrow, I would be up before the crack of dawn with no complaints. I’ve decided that I just need to make it happen. I need to start planning, exploring options, saving, praying and discovering when and where this is going to play out. Ultimately, I would love to plan a trip to go on sometime this fall. I have no idea where this is going to be, what I will be doing, if I will be able to get the time off of work, or if I will even be able to afford so much as a plane ticket out of this country. All I know is that I have a desire great enough and a passion strong enough to get the ball rolling.

I am open to thoughts, prayers, connections, ideas and just about anything else you would be willing to throw my way. I don’t know where this journey is heading or where this path may lead me, but all I know is that I’m ready to start walking. I want to start living out my passion. I want to stop being scared of what the coming days may bring. I’m ready to live like Jesus created me to live. I want to love people like Jesus loved. I want to give everything I can and hold nothing back. I want to live like that.

Was I love
When no one else would show up
Was I Jesus to the least of those
Was my worship more than just a song

I want to live like that
And give it all I have
So that everything I say and do
Points to You

If love is who I am
Then this is where I’ll stand
Recklessly abandoned
Never holding back

I want to live like that

Live Like That – Sidewalk Prophets

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